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2003-11-03T20:08:15Z

Big Five Test Results

The Big Five is currently the most accepted personality model in the scientific community. The Big Five emerged from the work of multiple independent scientists/researchers starting in the 1950s who using different techniques obtained similar results. Those results were that there are five distinct personality traits/dimensions. Here are your results on each dimension:

Extroversion results were moderately low which suggests you are quiet, unassertive, and aloof.

Friendliness results were moderately high which suggests you are good natured, trusting, and helpful but possibly too much of a follower

Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you tend to be unreliable, lazy, careless, and unmotivated.

Emotional Stability results were moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and nervous.

Intellectualness results were medium which suggests you are moderately creative, original, curious, and imaginative.

Overall, you scored highest on Friendliness and lowest on Emotional Stability.

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The Big Five Personality Test

Extroverted	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	44%
Introverted	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Friendly	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	60%
Aggressive	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	40%
Orderly	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	42%
Disorderly	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	58%
Relaxed	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	32%
Emotional	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	68%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Practical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%

Take Free Big 5 Personality Test

Keep in mind, your results are dependent on the accurate truth of your responses. The more you take this test and get the same result, the more likely the results may be accurate. Finally, your scores, over the long term, will change as you do.

FUN!

2003-08-20T12:56:37Z

I never update

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yo

2003-07-08T17:11:04Z

Happy Birthday to Mistifiedededness!

Ta Fuckin Da!

2003-06-07T17:35:19Z

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Hi

2003-06-03T16:08:23Z

Back from NYC. WHoohoo... I'll post pics later I gotta go get my digicam. In the meantime:

Thug Bear

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Now that's gangstuh.

Seven Deadly Sins

2003-03-08T21:42:57Z

7 DEADLY SINS

ANGER
1. Who did you last get angry with? my mom / my boss
2. What is your weapon of choice? my mind. fuck em up inside out, know what i'm sayin?
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex? maybe.
4. How about of the same sex? hell yeah, if the bitch got all up in my face
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you? my boyfriend? i guess
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? i can let some things go... some things just chill in my mind

SLOTH
1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time? wake up on time
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up? i can sleep for HELLA days, trust me.
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't: *shrug*
4. What is the last lame excuse you made? "I don't want to go to work, I changed my own schedule?" LOL
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones...)? hell yeah. those makeup set infomercials are interesting. hahaha
6. When was the last time you got a good workout in? ummm 8th grade?
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? once then i turned the volume down. hahaha

GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? Starbucks
2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat? dark meat
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? I was too drunk to measure. DUH.
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company? nah.
5. Do you have an issue with your weight? haha yeah.
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? those all tickle my taste buds
7. Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, "LUNCH"? WTF!

LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? Males? Girls? ummm 1? Two if you count me giving my baby nephew a bath... babies are people aren't they?
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? 1
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? lol. YEAH! cuz i swear she was stuffin it!!
4. Have you "done it"? What exactly is "it"?
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? *shrug*
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? what!?
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy? yeah... hello regular gyno visit... whoa too much info

GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own? uno
2. What's your guilty pleasure store? Untitled
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it? Car, bills, move my ass to the Bahamas or something
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous? rich
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? yup
6. Have you ever stolen anything? candy
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive? you know, good question.

PRIDE
1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of? getting rid of shady ppl in my life (hey, it was very hard to do)
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? one time.. i got a star on my spelling test. puwahhaha
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life? i dunno
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place? i did before... i just stopped caring
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? hahahaha yes.
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? uhh yeah?
7. What did you do today that you're proud of? fearlessly boycott my job. lol

ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? one of my friends's houses.. her life in general... she's has it good, livin it up, partyin it up. ugh.
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? OMG... ALSTAIRE!!! oh and have VERN decorate my house... that guy is so good!
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? fuckin Ivanka Trump (with her billion dollar inheritance... shiet)
4. Have you ever been cheated on? yyyyyeps
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? yuh huh
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? ummm smrtnes. lol
7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey? no
8. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? sloth

sigh

2003-03-06T16:42:34Z

I am so fuckin miserable. Well... ok not that miserable but things seem to be going downhill. I have no money. I have no ACTUAL boyfriend at this very moment (we'll get to that later). I hate my job. I just wanna get the hell out of this city.

When I say "I have no ACTUAL boyfriend", I mean... I feel like I don't have one. We didn't really break up or anything, it sure feels like we did. I don't know, he's being such a baby right now. We got into an argument... well I wouldn't really consider it arguing since it takes two to argue. He was the only one that was getting angry. Why? I dunno! Maybe my being such a depressed little girl frustrated him so much that it caused him to yell at me and hang up on me WHILE I WAS CRYING. *tsk* I don't know. Or maybe he isn't really angry, he just didn't wanna deal with me being sad and having to comfort me so he's pretending to be mad so we're not on speaking terms and that way, he doesn't have to hear any of my shit (I don't even know if that makes sense). Either way, that's a pretty jerk ass thing to do. The other day I didn't really give a fuck anymore. I was in the "two can play that game" frame of mind, I told myself if he was going to call to apologize and tell me he misses me, I wasn't gonna pick up my damn phone. This is because I was expecting him to call by last night. Which is usually around the time we would make up anyway. No call. No IM. No "hey bitch, are you alive?". I'm disappointed. Why don't I call him, you say? You see, because I already did. I tried to be the mature one and call him so this shit would be over already. He didn't pick up. I asked his sister to tell him to call me and she said he said "Why? What does she want?" WELL FUCK YOU THEN! I'm so pissed at him and I miss so much at the same time. BAH! You boys suck. ALL OF YOU!

I'm getting some perfect Customer Service pin cuz one of my customers gave me a great review when they called her to ask how everything went. Yeah how nice. I wrote my letter of resignation last night. Okay well, I've had it written for about ever since forever but last night I went to Kinko's to print it out (I'm out of ink and I'll be damned if I'm gonna spend $40 to print one stupid letter). It's a very nice letter. In fact I'll even post it here anything in [brackets like this] is just what I mean between the lines (what I'd really like to write):

Dear Ms. E********,

First of all it is a real [pain] pleasure working with you and your wonderful staff [those stupid bastards that like to steal my commission]. Thank you so much for giving me the opportunity to work her at Lenscrafters. Unfortunately due to some personal family matters [and due to the fact that I hate this janky ass place] I will no longer be able to work a full time job [here at this hellhole]. Starting March 21, 2003 [I wish it would be sooner but I want that last paycheck cuz it's gonna be FAT], I'm afraid that I will no longer be able to work here [whoohoo! *clicks heels*]. If permitted, I would very much like to go back to [my easy ass, straight chill] part time job at SGH. Thank you again for everything [ha, more like thanks for nothin'] and I hope to someday be able to to work with you again [see y'all in hell assholes!]. [I ain't workin here no mo' sucka.]

There you go, so hopefully I'll find a new job soon... One that I like. Hopefully I'll be less miserable after getting rid of this big fat stress in my life. I have to go file my income tax like grown-ups do. I'm scared. Damn government taking part of my check. They stuck em fo mah paypah! (huh?)

=(

2003-02-15T19:54:13Z

He's leaving tomorrow. That sucks.

Happy Vday!

2003-02-14T17:45:06Z

Aiite, I'm supposed to be running errands with my mom but Imma write up an entry real quick. Happy Valentimez Day! (haha i love when lil kids say valenTIMES, it's so frikkin cute!) Happy Massacre Day to

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Aiite, I'm supposed to be running errands with my mom but Imma write up an entry real quick. Happy Valentimez Day! (haha i love when lil kids say valenTIMES, it's so frikkin cute!) Happy Massacre Day to <a href"http://livejournal.com/~veenizzle" target="new">Veenizzle</a>. HA. Anyways... smooshy mushy moment... Nikko and I went bowling last night. We got there around like 10:30 and we were just bowling, havin fun, drinking boba... then like in the middle of our 4th game (we bowled 6 games last night! ha, freaks) he goes "Hey, come here..." and kisses my cheek "...Happy Valentine's Day, hun." I look up and it's exactly midnight. AWWWWWW! Ok that's enough. Anyways, I broke 100 for the first time last night... haha I supahSUCK at bowling.. well I used to *pops collar* haha. But yeah... oh and I beat him for the first time. MARIE WAS ON FIRE! *jazz hands* 
We ended up going to see Final Destination 2 on our anniversary. He was kinda cranky at first. I dunno if we were arguing or what. At the beginning of the movie I was tyring to hold his hand he didn't want to so I was like fine, ASS! and leaned waaaay over to the other side. Then a little bit later he took my hand and pulled me towards him. *cheeeeze* (OK I SWEAR THAT'S THE LAST MUSHY MOMENT!)So yeah he made up for the rest of the day that he basically slept on me. Ok so yeah we saw that movie after I saw it... I was kinda getting overly conscious of eerything around me. Like when we were driving home and we were at the stop light, he stopped right under the frikkin huge ass street sign and it was hella windy. That shit started swinging... I'm all thinking "That shit could just fall right now and crush me.... that's great." HA. Fuckin movie. 
He's taking me to <a href="http://urbn.com" target="new">Urban Outfitters</a> today cuz there was a hat that I saw last night that I really wanted. Whoohoo! Icelynn got the same hat in gray last night, I want brown. She had a shirt made for her friend and so Nikko and I decided that we wanted custom shirts too.. well it's not gonna be anything fucktardo-cutesy-shmootsey our shirts aren't even gonna be amtching... haha but yeah I think we're gonna go do that today too. Cuz he's leaving Sunday... =( 
Arite, I gotta go wake him up and we gotta go. I said this was gonna be quick right? It's too damn long now.

Happy Muthafuggin Anniversary! >=(

2003-02-12T00:43:03Z

OK so today is February 11th... we've been together 2 years and 11 months. Since we're not gonna be together next month on our ACTUAL 3-year Anniversary... we decided before that we're going to celebrate it today. Well guess what, today we woke up and had to clean the house up a bit cuz the damn technician for the damn ISP was supposed to come to our place and fuckin fix my net connection cuz it's fucked up. So we were frustrated for most of the morning cuz we didn't get enough sleep. Then the damn tech didn't show up. So while we were waiting on our ass from 2pm-5pm we coulda been out doing something fun/productive. THEN we decide, ok, let's have our date and go to the movies to see Final Destination 2 (which btw, I've been wanting to see ever since it came out)... but guess what now he's ASLEEP whoop dee doo. Happy Anniversary... isn't it magical?

YES got voted off Battle of the Sexes last night. Poo. That show JUST lost a viewer. haha. Nah, jk... I'm gonna watch cuz I love baggin/hatin on Ellen. Fuckin whiny ass bitch. >=)

I'm updating!

2003-01-19T22:51:45Z

Wow, I haven't been here in a super long time. I dunno, I'm way too lazy.. speaking of lazy I need to haul my ass to the laundry room and do laundry... but not before I write up a decent entry.

I've been having tons of fun lately! Yep, just livin it up with a few new friends I've made. It's cool though, they're more fun than the so called "friends" I had before who never wanted to do anything.Of course they're older than me too... but who cares... it's fun. It's like in high school, I never really went to parties and clubs that much and do things that typical teenagers do. Now in my last year of being a teenager, I'm JUST starting to do that stuff. What's cool is I won't get shit for coming home at 4-5 in the morning cuz I LIVE BY MYSELF. Yeah, life is good. Oh and also I've found a new obsession for bowling. haha... yeah man I suck, but I like it! I can't seem to break 100 though, my highest so far was a 98.. yeah yeah I know, it sucks. poo. =D

My boyfriend is coming here to visit on the 24th! That's in 5 days! Yeah baby! I can't wait until he gets here... of course I gotta drive to the airport at 5am but it's all good... like I'm gonna be able to sleep the night before anyways. He's staying with me for 3 weeks. Wow, we're gonna see how it's gonna be if we live together. I'm a little nervous but I KNOW we'll be okay. I mean we HAVE gotten sick of each other before... but we got through it. EEEEEH! I can't wait!

Anyone watching MTV Battle of the Sexes? Hawww man, YES is so sexy. Actually a few guys on the guy's team are sexy. That guy Laterrian was fine too, but he got voted off already so that sucks. I told Veenizzle that if they vote off Yes, I'm gonna sotp watching haha. On the girl's team... uhh yeah therey's some pretty freakin annoying chicks there. Like that asian chick Ellen, uhh right... she's so the typical, whiny, asian girl, it annoys the shit out of me. Emily and Amaya annoy me too. Oh and that chick, Beth who got voted off.. I'm glad she got voted off cuz she got all mad that Ruthie gave that life saver thing to the pregnant chick... stupid. But yeah out of all the girls, I like Ruthie, Melissa, and Jisela. They don't annoy me or anything... hahah... ok I'm getting obsessed with the show but seriously, is YES get's voted off, I'm gonna stop watching.

Pfft.

2002-12-16T08:55:49Z

Misty said she was gonna stuff bamboo under my fingernails if I didn't update this. She's cruel. SURE, she's cute, but don't let her fool you! She's ev0L!!! =P

I'll update tomorrow and tell you all about my fun-filled weekend with it's half nekked dancing guys and old men. fun fun fuN!

HAFFY BERTHDAY!

2002-12-10T02:29:47Z

I know I told you a million times... HAFFY BIRTHDAY Veenizzle!!

Christmas

2002-12-08T22:55:04Z

MAN! Christmas time is here! I feel so Christmas-y! I always get like this during the holidays. I love the whole deal... shopping, getting through the crowds, wrapping christmas gifts. My house is hella weird though. Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, we all go off and do our own thing. New Year's Eve is when we have our family thing. That's when we open presents too. New Year's Eve before the countdown. So yeah, we wait another 6 days to open presents. That's ok though, cuz when we go to other houses on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, we open presents there too.. so yeah we have TWO gift sessions. I think it's pretty cool. heh.

Anyways, I'm feelin lazy today which is a horrible horrible thing! I could be taking advantage of my day off to move the rest of my crap to my apartment. (btw, I didn't move my comp yet.. man! i don't wanna use dial-up!!! lol) I'll stat in an hour. Psssshyeah right!

On saturday I got some of my christmas shopping done! Whoohoo! I'm even more broke now though, but I love giving presents during christmas. Last year my "friends" and I all got each other like three gifts each. Man, and I'm not the type of person who gives gifts like "Oooh ok, that's a great gift idea... thanks Martha!". I Like to personalize and really think about my gift. Like this year, my cousin is getting her bf a velour fit or something so I went and got her the girl version so they can match! I dunno, I think it's thoughful *shrug*. My boyfriend said he didn't want anything for xmas... too bad I can't buy him a plane ticket. Two years ago, he was my mom's xmas gift to me. No, seriously! She bought him a plane ticket so he could come spend xmas with me! That was the best. At first we were borrowing money from her to buy the ticket, then she goes.. "No, no... this is my xmas gift to you guys" SO sweet! But then, this year, yeah... I got him a triple5soul hoodie and probably something else. Then I bought a couple of my friends Cali shirts from Hollister. I hate that store, but hey they like it so *shrug*. I got my newphew an outfit too. That little boy is so spoiled. Last year I spent so much on just him. I got him 3 sets of clothes, a winter jacket, and Buzz Light Year toys. whoohoo! he was PIMPED OUT last year. lol. Anyways, I still have lots of shopping to do. That's an advantage of us exchanging gifts on New Year's... we can shop the Dec. 26th sales for gifts! whoohoo!!

Ok well I should get off my ass now. Toodles! Oh yeah thanks to you wonderful chicas for your words on my very depressing entry from two nights ago. you guys made me smile! *hugs*

EDIT -------------------------------------------- I just realized I wanted to write about this ---------

Yesterday I got super pissed off! Why? Because my ex-best friend left a voicemail on my manager's cellphone. My manager, Maria, was like "you gotta listen to this" I refused to listen due to the fact that her voice would fuckin annoy the shit out of me and it would just make me irritable the whole damn day. Well she forced me to listen to it... I SWEAR that chick's voice got even more annoying!

Hi Maria, this is ****, I was gonna stop in and say hi... BUT UHHHH YEAAAHH... I just wanted to say hi... ok take care! MMMmBye!

"BUT UHH YEAAAAAH" = "I saw Marie in there and I don't wanna see her." Good, don't show your fucking face to me cuz I don't wanna see it!! I know it was because of that because I checked the time and it was the time that my boss and I were working the shift together. Poophead. *annoyed*

Mishmash blahblah.

2002-12-05T06:17:45Z

Whoa whoa whoa... what's this? An entry? hmmm lol, I'm so retarded. Anyways, I've been gone from this thing for a few days, eh? yeah... I miss my personal site. It;s gone =(

The past few days have been so hectic! Well with all the moving in the new place and all that stuff... I need to get some rest! lol. My furniture is already in the apartment. I just need to move in my personal things (clothes, CDs, computer... etc.) My TV is getting delivered tomorrow! Weeheeee! I also took care of my little parking space issue. I feel kinda bad though cuz I kicked someone out of their parking space, but what're ya gonna do? That's my parking space, plus that person doesn't even live in the building. the only thing is now is that my mom won't let me stay there overnight until the deadbolt id fixed. She's worried that I might be kidnapped...ooooookay. It's ok though, cuz most of my stuff is still here anyways. I can't wait until I'm actually like LIVING there! whoohoooo!!

I don't think I'll be working @ T-Mobile. I mean, it's too fucking far from where I'm gonna live. PLUS I'm not so sure that I'm feelin the atmosphere there. yes, the guys are cute.. but blah whatever. AND I'm definitely not feelin the hourly wage there either. BAH! I dunno! I think I'm gonna apply for this one receptionist job @ this nursing home. It pays $9/hr plus benefits. I'm feelin that. Plus all I gotta do is sit on my arse all day and answer phones? Sounds good to me! I really hope that that secretary job at a doctor's office opens up next month. That pays $10/hr... that's good stuff! Plus it's alot closer to my apartment. So yeah... hopefully *crosses fingers*

I miss my Nikkobear. >_< !!!! It's gotten even worse lately. I can't even watch tv and see some couple hugging and not be like "eww wtf?" Like the other day, I was watching Save the Last Dance and everytime the guy and the girl got all lovey dovey I changed the channel. I couldn't take it.*sigh* I'm not even gonna see him this christmas!!! booooo! This is our 3rd xmas as a couple and our very 1st xmas apart. boooo!!!! Oh man oh man...I WAS supposed to go see him for xmas but seeing as how I'm hella broke... it's just not possible. Man! Who's gonna drive me to the day-after-xmas sale!? Who am I gonna kiss on New Year's Eve?! man, last year I remember we'd walk around the city and it was hella freezing. He held my hand and put it in his coat pocket cuz stupid me, I never wear gloves. Who's coat pocket am I gonna put my hand in now!? This sucks.

Anyways... I have alot of stuff to do tomorrow. I gotta wait for my TV, call the cable company, put contact paper in the cbainets and drawers and blah blah blah. OH and tomorrow I'm moving my comp to my apartment. So this is gonna be my very very very last entry from this room.... sooo This is Marie aka SupahFresh..coming to you from my bedroom... for the last time... signing off. *blows kisses* lol... toodles!

Arrrrgh!!!

2002-11-28T20:04:58Z

I really really really need to stop procrstiminating!!! I still haven't packed yet and I'm moving in 3 days... THREE!!! Sheesh. Well it won't be hard I guess, I'm only taking my clothes, my comp, my tv and stereo and my lamps. Plus, it's not like I can't come back back home to get more stuff. Well if it's not that hard, why haven't I done it yet?!? Ayayay!

I picked up the keys for the apartment yesterday! Whoohoo! But then I find out that some assmonkey is occupying MY parking space and they need to notify said assmonkey to move his ride out of my spot. I won't have a parking space until sometime next month. That sucks cuz it's hell finding a freakin parking spot in that neighborhood. Note to you who are planning to visit me: TAKE A CAB. Sheesh. I should just like block the car that's in my space everyday, I'll make him move myself. jadfhlajsdhfa!!! So I won't have parking now =(, dammit. When I really can't find parking, I'll just come home, park in the garage and sleep here. HA. Anyways, yeah after I picked up the keys yesterday, I went up to the apartment. Man I spent like a half an hour just sitting there. I have a teeny problem though, it's actually smaller than I remember (when I saw it the first time). It's actually the size of my bedroom now (not including the bathroom and good size kitchen). So all this planning of where to to put stuff is meant for a place that's a bit bigger. Crapness. It's ok, I still heart it. I'll just have to get smaller stuff. LOL.

Moving along... man this is turning out to be a long entry.

These past few days Nikko has been sounding down. =T I don't even know why cuz he won't tell me what the hell is the matter. He always says "Nothing" It's super frustrating >_< cuz I like to be SupahGirlfriend and I wanna fix anything and everything that's wrong. I CAN'T FIX IT IF I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL IT IS!!! Well anyways that was the last few days. But last night, he was sounding better. Back to the asshole that he is. Niyahaha. In a teasing sense I mean. I was glad to hear that he was feeling better.... even though he never told me that he was feeling bad in the first place, I knew something was up. Sheesh, how does he stay with me for more than 2 1/2 years and expect me to not know when something's wrong. Goofball *rolls eyes*

Well I'm gonna go pack. *heh* Yeah right, I'm gonna go eat and cement myself to the couch. NO NO.. MUST PACK!!! Shmell ya later! *does running man*

Jealous?

2002-11-23T07:12:26Z

Last night Nikko and I were talking and out of nowhere...

him: hey, do you like May?
me: yeah...
him: I mean do you really like her.. like a friend?
me: yeah, she's pretty coo... why are you askng me this?
him: I dunno, cuz when we she met up with us that one day, you started kinda actin weird when she got there.
me: oh. yeah...
him: tell me!
me: nah, cuz it seemed like you were paying more attention to her than you were to me...well no, I mean like she was getting more attention from you than she shoulda been getting...
him: really?
me: yeah
him: so you were jealous?
me: i dunno... I guess... but then I got over it cuz I kept telling myself "It's JUST May... she'll annoy him too easily anyways"
him: hahaha... yeah she does annoy me easily... but i'm sorry if i made you feel that way though.. i didn't mean to...
me: it's ok... i know there's nothing there... don't get me wrong.. i DO like her.. it was just...uhh yeah...

Eww, jealous girlfriend! That was the first time ever I was jealous of anyone! Sheesh what was I thinking?! Well I guess it's easy to be jealous of a girl like her. She's pretty, she's funny... plus they hang out alot cuz she's his cousin's ~~girl~~friend. I turst him though, there's nothing there... there's nothing anywhere else. He loves me and only me, yay!

HAFFY BIRTHDAY!!

Yo.

2002-11-20T17:54:44Z

I just wanna update this really quick. Ha, I'm not too good with intros.

That mess with my boyfriend is all cleared up. *yay* I thought he was mad at me for nothing that's why he wasn't callin or answering my calls. HE thought I was mad at him because last time we spoke I hung up on him. So he was basically like "fuck it, imma leave her alone" and went to San Diego without telling me. Poop. It's all good, we're cool now. Of course now, I can't get to sleep early cuz he just won't shut up on the phone. HAHA Just kidding, I don't mind. As long as we're talking. *cheeese*

So I had to toil over whether or not I wanna live with my cousin in a two-bedroom for a couple days. I've decided not to. I just wanna be by myself for awhile. I mean I don't wanna have to worry about "my roommate". I just wanna do as I please in my own place, nahmean? She can wait until my lease is over so she can save up money and then we can move together. But there's no guarantee that I won't be moving out of state *ahem wuh wuh* closer to Nikko. =D

I need to catch up on some entries! But right now I gotta get ready cuz Erika and I are going on one of our whole day mall trips. Gawd, here we go again. *flies to superhero music*

Whoa...

2002-11-14T01:51:13Z

I haven't posted in like days... haha. Shocking since I've been posting everyday since I got this thing (twice a day even...nerdo).

I found an apartment! Yup! I went to take a look at the buidling I posted about (see below) and the view of the city was super nice but the place wasn't really that great. The lady who was showing me the apartment told me that she managed a different building that had two studios available. So we got into our cars and drove over to see it. She showed me the first studio and I LOVED IT! Hardwood floors, mirrored closet doors, not too small, not too big... PARKING (it's not indoor but it's fenced in with the building so it's all good) laundry facility and a fitness room *oooh*. I told the lady i wanted it and so we went down to her office and I filled out an application and she did a credit check. I hate credit checks, I never get apporoved cuz my credit's too short. BUT she said she didn't have a problem giving me the apartment so I wrote a check for my security deposit and 1 month's rent and signed the lease THAT SAME DAY! Whoohoo! So now, Marie has a place to live. yipee!

I got another job! Yuh huh! After work on monday, I went and applied to hella places. I went to a different mall and applied at Rampage with my friend, Adrian. He bought a ring there and while the manager was ringing him up, she was talking to me. All of a sudden she says "You know what? Do you have like a few minutes right now?" I said yes and she took me to the backroom. She interviewed me and then she hired me! Right there! She said she's the type that usually goes by first impressions and she liked me! So yay, I got a job there. I'm still waiting for Urban Outfitters to call though, cuz I'd rather work there ...it's more my style. THEN yesterday I went to T-Mobile to get my cellphone and I asked if they were hiring cuz I heard they make pretty good money. The guy said yeah and he had to me talk to his friend/boss. His boss asked what my availability was and I told him mornings so he said, "Hell yeah, we're hiring." Then he couldn't find any applications (ok can't find any apps,their check machine wasn't working, they don't have a cash register, AND the other kiosk didn't have any pens...hmmm good job) So he leaned on the counter and started asking me hella questions (Where do you live by? School? How old are you? blah blah blah) then he says, "BTW, this is like your interview right here." Ooookay. But yeah then he told me to call him on thursday so he can tell me if his boss owuld let him hire me. I HOPE HE DOES... cuz then I won't have to work at Rampage (don't get me wrong, there's nothing bad about Rampage but it's really tiring working at a clothing store). Sheesh, people are jsut givingme jobs left and right... haha.

So I got an apartment and I got a second job... I'm all set to venture out on my own in the real world (dun dun dun!!!) I told my boyfriend that I apologize ahead of time if I seem too tired to talk to him when I get home at night or I sort of neglect him (after I move out) He's like "It's ok honey... I'll understand. I know you love me anyways." Geeeeeez... so sweet! Now I'll be out of the house, you know what THAT means? One step closer to moving closer to be with my boyfriend. *sigh*

Gotta go, Fastlane's on! Whoohoo! *does robot* (harhar Nizzle)

$#!@#!!!! sdkfjksdflkfkdfjas'!!!!

2002-11-09T06:40:26Z

Ack. Back to square one on the whole apartment dealie. After alot (a whole lot) of thinking about it, I decided getting an apartment with no available parking is just not practical. I didn't really give that much thought into it until my boyfriend (Nikko) said, "WHAT?! You're gonna park on the street at night? I don't want you walking through the streets at night, esp. during the winter!!" Good lookin out, honey. *sigh* I called the landlord and I told him that I won't be turning in that application. It's ok though, I called up more places today before going to work. This place that I'm particulamarly interested in has UNLIMITED PARKING. Yay! PLUS, hardwood floors, laundry facilities, nice view, fitness room and did I mention UNLIMITED PARKING! I made an appointment to look at it tomorrow afternoon. They had the floor plan posted online, it look thuper nice!

Moving on...

I think I've lost my party...umm..thing. LOL. Nah, I dunno it seems like I'm getting more and more shy. I'm becoming even more of a loner. Adrian invited me to a party tomorrow, at first I was like "YEAH! New people..." The it was like "Eww... new people..." I don't know what's wrong with me. I used to be fun and up for anything. Now it's just BLEH. hmmm..oh well.

I'm gonna go bug my boyfriend. Later crocodiles! err..

Kiss me and smile for me....

2002-11-08T07:01:11Z

...tell me that you'll wait fo' me... The last time I heard this song, I was in the car with my boyfriend and he was driving me to the airport =(. I didn't even hear the whole song, it came up on the CD and I was like, "Man, I don't wanna listen to this song." and I skipped it. Man, I'd give anything to see him right this moment. I'm missing him like crazy. I'm even losing sleep over it now... which never happened before. But yeah, he was the one who noticed it, cuz I wouldn't be able to sleep and once he called me (which is usually very late in the evening) I'd hear his voice and I'd complain that I can't sleep and ask him to stay on only to fall asleep on him like 10 minutes later. I'm so fuckin weird. But yeah... I wanna go back and be with him. =/ Not worry, Im gonna moving there in about a year. Yeah, for those who know me personally, I've moved it up to ONE YEAR. Screw it, I'm just gonna go to college there. Forget this whole finish school first shat. I'll bust my ass working here and then save my money and GO. Hey Vee, let's blow these ghey ass popstands! LOL.

Vee and I are gonna move into a murder house...for cheap! Right, Nizzle?

Anyh00t, I found my apartment today! *cabbage patch* I woke up at like 10 am (hey that's frikkin early for me) and my mom and I drove around looking at apartments. The first few we looked at were nice but the buildings didn't really appeal to me. Then like around 1 PM my mom was ready to go cuz she had to be at the office. I looked at the piece of paper with all the numbers and I was like "Wait, did you call this one *points to number*" She said no so I grabbed my portable telecommunication gadget (i.e. my ghetto ass cellphone) and called the number. The guy agreed to meet me in 20 minutes so he can show me the place. I drove up to this big red brick building (one block from the lake *eeeh!!!*) and like the guy wasn't there yet so we waited outside. I took pics of the building from the car, hehe. Anyways, when we went it...omg it was soooo nice!!! It looks like a frikkin hotel! So we went up to the apartment, as soon as I walked in it was like, this is it. *UNF* I fell in love with the place. So what if it has no garage parking (I'll walk), so what if the window has no view of the lake (it's a block away! I'll walk!)... I LOVE IT. Hardwood floors, big closet (humonGO!), nice little kitchen, nice bathroom.... I love, I love!!! The landlord is super nice too. I called him from my mom's office telling him that I want my the apartment. So he came to my mom's office and dropped off the application form for the credit check. Which is fine cuz mine is squeaky clean! I might ahve to start a site taking pictures of my decorating process. Won't that be ~~dorky~~ interesting. I hope all goes well... if it does he said I can move in next week!!! WHOOHOO!

Well taht's all for tonight... oh visit her, her, her (my gurLiez, I labbers them! lynnie is a poophead she doesn't have livejournal... *hugs monitor*), and her (she's cool cuz she watches the re-runs on Disney Channel... like me!) Nitenite people *c-walks*

Team HOBOerectus™

2002-11-07T05:48:38Z

The other night I wrote an entry about the friend that I haven't talked to for about a year. Well okay, once again I came out of something feeling dumb. In the beginning of the conversation he didn't really seem interested intlaking tome. In fact, I sorta felt like he was a bit annoyed that I was trying to talk to him. Hey man, I was just trying to get some answers. After about an hour of chatting with a boob who replies with one liners, I gave up. I decided that when he says he has to go.. that would be it. I wouldn't talk to him ever again. Sheesh, at least I tried. I always thought we were good friends...apparently not. This is a guy who trusted me with something that he porbably never told anyone else. This is a guy that once reffered to me as his "best friend". "Friend" -- whatever that means.

me: what was ur email again
k199ramm: *********@hotmail.com
me: do u have class tomorrow?
k199ramm: yups
me: oh i c
k199ramm: well, i let u go, cuz i hav class at 8 in da morn and i stil hav 2 do hw
k199ramm: nite
me: goodbye, mark.

I don't know if he got the hint that "Goodbye, Mark." meant that was the last time we'd ever talk. I dunno. I just feel I don't need to be friends with someone who makes me feel stupid.. someone who makes me feel like such a loser. Sheesh, honestly, why do I even try?! It didn't work out with Bernadette... Alstaire doesn't keep in touch (my friendship apparently isn't as valuable as others')... and Scott... uh let's not even go there. Let's give it up for Team HOBOerectus™. *rolls eyes* Sheesh.

I started getting rid of stuff today. Anything and everything they ever gave me went into a box with all our pictures. The only pictures up aorund my room now are of my boyrfiend and I and my little nephew. The two people (offline) that don't cause me headaches and heartache. Honestly, they're the only two that keep me sane (besides my online chicas). Anyways, I'm doing pretty well. My books and most of my CDs (since I don't listen to them anyway) are packed in a box already. =D Ok well I have nothing else to write. I love this live journal though... *hugs monitor* ok byebye. *does running man*

Eh.

2002-11-05T05:56:38Z

I'm liking this Live Journal. I knew I was gonna abandon my site for this. Anyways, I like this better for more ummm....private entries. My website is so open, I can't post that many thoughts onto it.

Moving on...

Right now and old friend just signed on AIM (and how ironic, this is the song we always listened to in my car). I haven't seen or talked to him in a year. We were such good friends and all of a sudden he dissappeared. Like *poof* wanted nothing to do with me. But right now I'm getting some answers. It really hurt when we just stopped talking because i considered him one of my best friends. Anyways... yeah we're chatting right now, so we'll see what happens. Althought right now, he's not osunding like he gives a fuck anyways. HOBOerectus.

Anyways, right now I'm looking for an apartment to move into. Last night I was thinking about it and I came up with the fact that my mom is kicking me out. She's sugarcoating it, saying she's doing it so I'll learn to be on my own. Horse shit. She picked her husband over me, once again. Maybe that's not the case, but it sure does feel like it. BLAH. The point is I'm moving out and that make me happy. =D

klsdfklajsdfasjdf

2002-11-04T10:14:20Z

Finally, I think I'm done editing this sheezy. Watch, tomorrow it'll be a whole different look. I'm kooky like that.

I'm so sleepy but I'm trying to stay awake to wait for my boyfriend's call. Sheesh. If I go to sleep he'll wake me up and I'll be cranky. I'm waiting all this time just to say goodnight and hang up, pretty fuckin sad, I know. But hey, we won't have time to talk tomorrow. BLAH.

Anyways, I'm having fun chatting with the girlies. PRDGZ w00t.

LiveJournal

2002-11-04T08:17:20Z

this thing is confusing.... but thanks to Misty and Mae for helping..muwhahahaha. Hurry up Veenizzle!!